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The slowest two seconds
6 Jan 10, 10:58 PMThat familiar face, too familiar to believe it to be in that place, compelled me to pull back the last step to the beginning of another milestone of waiting; wh...
Return to innocence
1 Dec 09, 11:32 AMSomething very upright about life is it shows it's beautiful and real face time to time. A face that renders after deciphering ineluctable layers of stilted man...
Slipshod Phase
14 Apr 09, 2:38 PMThere are people who hold a social position that is tied around us since your very first minute on this planet and offer a warm comfort level that when you are ...
A fortnight of murphy
16 Feb 09, 11:10 PMA trip, which had started with an accidental smooch to 1.5x sized portrait of Madhuri Dixit inside a typical Delhi auto while rushing to station on a heavy tra...
Ghajini Review
27 Dec 08, 5:05 AMIt felt like i was witnessing a rape. A brutal rape of one of the most brilliant story written ever. Jonathan Nolan & Christopher Nolan might commit suicide aft...
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Posted: 24-01-2009 10:59:01 AM
It\'s a nice Blog!!